I really haven't been here in ages. . well, partially because I haven't been drawing at all lately and my scanner was getting moved from this computer, to the other one; so I had to wait a month or so because no one would do it. x--x'

Anyway, I recently got a message from :userChloeeh: about my Jinchuuriki picture for Fuu. And, well, I guess you can say that's what's motivating me to start drawing again, woo!~ I'm probably going to finish up my Akatsuki pics first, since I only have, like. . four to go. Seven to go with the Jinchuuriki; I might consider drawing the beasts, too, if asked.

Well, I've been sick for about three to four weeks now, and I've missed more days of school than I can count; my dad's pissed at me because he thinks I stay up all night playing videogames and sleeping all day. I mean, jeez'. . sure, he can be a bitch at times, but he said he 'changed' and that's the whole reason why we're back. He's starting to go back to the way he was. . mental abuser; I swear, it gets so annoying sometimes. He blames the family for his problems, and cries about EVERYTHING. And people wonder why I get so depressed. Well, my mom was thinking about sending me to the counselor about my mental issues, but I told her that the sooner she gets me out of this state and away from my dad, the better off the both of us will be. Well, on another note. . I went to the doc' a few days ago and they couldn't find what's wrong. They drew blood, took x-rays, ect'. Blood test came back negative; and I've yet to get the results of my x-ray. . the nurse said they think it might be an inflamed lymph node. Which, of course, I ended up reading about and it says that these can make small things like throat infection, or life-threatening illnesses such as cancers. Great, right?

At any rate. . tried to go to school today, but broke down. Guess I'm not mentally prepared for it anymore? It sucks how this all plays out, I feel like what my dad said was true; I am a burden to my whole family. Every time I go to school, I always want to go home. . but not my home. I feel like running away, but with nowhere to go. I'm starting to believe that my mentality is sick. . not my body.

Nevertheless. . I have to go to school tomorrow, sadly enough. . ouh, can't wait for everyone to ask if I'm alright -- that's the worst thing I can take at this point.